ME! MYSELF AND I!!

Beautiful c.h.i.j.m.e.s

2008-09-17T01:49:00.000-07:00

you know i have passed by chijmes a million times, i admired the building and all that but never really took time to stop and enjoy the beauty of it, just yesterday i wanted to just go in and take a look at its surroundings, i took pictures, and you know wat i love the place its beautifull, the first chij sch was there i am an ex ij gal, its just amazing, its a pity i haven't dine in at any of the restaurants there before.... however i wish.....

i wish to celebrate maybe my b'day there maybe just call a few secondary sch friends and hang out there that will be soooo cool....

Or

whenever i get married i hope to take the wedding pics there....that will be sooo perfect...

I have to start my revision

2008-09-17T01:46:00.000-07:00

Gosh my exams are in 4 & 9 dec 08, i was just looking at the revision classes.... i am going to be supper busy soon.....oh boy i havent had a exam for a long time now.... right now i am so lazy, even to drag myself to classes is a chore... i need to study and revise... i dun know when and where to start crap......

after almost a year i am blogging again

2008-09-15T21:05:00.001-07:00

here is a updated pics of me....

i am back....

2008-09-15T21:05:00.000-07:00

Gosh guess i havent been blogging for a lonnnnng time, it was nice reading up my old entries.... well life is fine now, i have had two surgeries in two yrs, i have started my Acca course, gosh it really is not easy working full time and studying part-time... hats off to all those ppl who made it.... i am like struggling la... but its all good, i have missed some classes due to poor health, i really hope i will understand what i have learned and apply them well in my exams..... i know i will...

lost soul

2007-08-02T02:40:00.000-07:00

pls dun ask me if i am ok, when u know i am not, i dun want to lie to you, cause u love me too much not to see me fine. I will take my time to be fine, not forced into being fine......**** ** ***

Disappointments.....

2007-08-02T02:08:00.000-07:00

i really do not know, if i am disappointed or i choose to be disappinted, i hate empty promises, maybe i am not understanding enough, if i am understanding enough, will i loose my feelings, i dun noe, i have soo much of mixed emotions inside me, i feel i cannot tell anyone, i dun want to be forced into tellin how i feel, i know i am not perfect, i know i am stuborn, but so are you. Maybe you have soo many things going on, i dun noe, how to tell you how i feel, i dun want you to think i am being unreasonable, ok nevermind, i will just stop dreaming and live in the present, dreaming is very bad andrea, it only leads to disappoints. Fantascing is a total bulls****, i will just devert my attention somewhere eles, yes that is only the best way, i will stop thinking abt us sooooo much, i will live each day as it comes, never forsee wat is planned for you tomorrow.....i am going to keep myself occupied, maybe with part-time jobs and excercise or something....

i just love this song i like the words..... its from kelly carkson its called haunted

Haunted"

Louder, louder
The voices in my head
Whispers taunting
All the things you said
Faster the days go by and I'm still
Stuck in this moment of wanting you here
Time
In the blink of an eye
You held my hand, you held me tight
Now you're gone
And I'm still crying
Shocked, broken
I'm dying inside

Where are you?
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Speak to me
Be near me
I can't survive unless I know you're with me

Shadows linger
Only to my eye
I see you, I feel you
Don't leave my side
It's not fair
Just when I found my world
They took you, they broke you, they tore out your heart

I miss you, you hurt me
You left with a smile
Mistaken, your sadness
Was hiding inside
Now all that's left
Are the pieces to find
The mystery you kept
The soul behind a guise

Where are you
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Speak to me
Be near me
I can't survive unless I know you're with me

Why did you go?
All these questions run through my mind
I wish I couldn't feel at all
Let me be numb
I'm starting to fall

Where are you?
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Speak to me
Be near me
I can't survive unless I know you're with me

Where are you?
Where are you?

You were smiling

?

2007-07-03T06:58:00.000-07:00

i have a lot of question marks on my head......why do i feel i am always misunderstood, i know i am not underestandig too, i hate changes i really hate changes, when i made sacrificed so much in the beginging i felt lie i was suffering always making people better then i was, yes it's my fault for not tellin how i felt, but i had to hide my own emotions because ppl have sooo much of things going own, my sacrifice did't seem too much, now that i can get my life back to how it was, its sooo difficult, i feel sooo disorgansied, i do not noe how to put things in place, i am used to my "sacrificed life" i dun want what i lost now.......i dun noe what i am typing i am just soooo confused, i want to cry sooo hard sooo much but i am stopping myself, i am sick and tired of crying i am just sooooo sick of it, i am soooo tempted to cut myself again and again but i can't as i promised i will not cut myself again, but the emotions i hv to go through to not cut myself is terrible.......all i ask is for me to be happy, i have seen and cryed enough in my life, i want a happier life, a better life a cry free life......please

Happiness never lasts..............

2007-04-26T13:19:00.000-07:00

I got a new phone on 26 Apr, Nokia 6288. i have been eyeing this phone for a couple of mths now glad i got this phone, i took a long time to blog again because, i was hospitalised had to undergo a surgery on my back, haiz wat happened was, ok the week that i got my phone, i was feelin very sick, got my phone on a thurs, since Monday, i felt a pain on my back, the pain got worse each day, then on wednesday i had fever, continued having fever everyday after that, it was really unsual, then on friday night i had really high fever, but still i packed my bag for work at the gym the next day, but my mum scolded me as she really wanted me to see the doc i was postponing it all week as i gave up visiting the doctor, then i asked for replacement for my shift and went to the polyclinic on sat, i did't know that i had fever because of the lump, the doctor said that was the cause of the fever, and refered me to A & E, at Tan Tock Seng, i was really in pain by then, i cld not eat my lunch properly boy it was hell, at Tan Tock Seng, they said i need a surgery and i need to be hospitalised, i really did't know it was this serious, the day before i told paupei that i was really frighten, he really gave me some courage, i told him paupei that i was going to be hospitalised he said he will come to the hospital, after a short wait, i was given my ward ard 5pm, a group of doctors came to see my lump and said they will prepare for my operation and that i can't eat or drink anything, i was like crap, as i was really hungry by then, they took some of my blood and put me on the drip, gosh it was painful, my cousin and bro came to see me, then paupei came i was so happy to see him, he brought me flowers, then ard 9pm they i asked me to get really for the opt i was like shit soo soon, i took at paupei and my family with fear in my eye, at the opearation theater, i was asked lots of question, then the jam that puts you to sleep, i taught it will slowly put me to sleep, but in no time, i blacked out the next thing i knew i was in another room another observation, i was soo drowsy and in so much pain that i was morning in pain and crying, the nurse gave me lots of pain killers in fact to the max, then they brought me to my ward, it was 11.10pm, i was hoping that my boyfriend, my dear paupei was still there, cause he said if i was not back at my ward by 11pm he would leave as he needed to catch the last train home, i was hoping that he was still there, i noe my family will be there no doubt, when i was at my ward, the first person i saw was my paupei, even though i was blur and weak i was very happy to see him and my family there, i did't noe i told this to paupei, but he said i told him that i was glad that he was still there, i got discharged the next day, felt very weak last week wat made it worse was i had to get my dressing changed everyday, the nurse said the wound is still raw and big, i really hope it will close up soon, maybe its not healing soon because its a open wound.... But i really appreciate everyone that came to see me, sheena came to see me just before i got discharged i was very happy to see her too. I am blessed.....

MY NEW BABY

Goodluck or badluck...

2007-04-20T06:43:00.000-07:00

Ermmm, i did't go to watch the dance floor, maybe subconsiousely i knew i was going to get sick AGAIN later, hai, wat happened was after i went to the dentist, i had this burning feeling in my stomach, then i was puking my guts out every hour from 4am till abt 7 plus, i puked alittle blood too, that really freaked me out, i was sooo frighten that i called paupei and my gdma, they calmed me down and stuff, i did't sleep at all that night, later that day i had high fever, till there was sharp pain in my knees and back, i really felt like and looked like shit, i coulded see the doc yesterday because i was too weak too walk, paupei was angry at the fact that i did't see the doc, but he really take care of me, togather with my gdma and mum, Paupei and gdma were really worried abt me, but i am feeling better now went to see the doc today, she said i had food poisoning...gosh, now for the good news, after waiting for abt 1 mth and 19 days i had 3 job offers, 2 temp and 1 permanent job, of course i took the permanent job,i will start work in early May, but i really hope i will enjoy my work and stay with the co. for a long term.... chao!

6 mths already...

2007-04-17T02:34:00.000-07:00

Wow it is our 6th month togather yesterday.... paupei got me a rose, i really love it and he is the first person ever to give me a rose...how sweet

when to my gdma's place today to play with the twinz and of course to look for more jobs....many ppl hv helped me by telling me where to look for one, i really appreciate that, thank you guys...i think i am going to spend the rest for the day reading.....

This is the rose.....

Twin 1: Rony

Twin 2: Becky

the dance floor!

2007-04-15T06:21:00.000-07:00

I am not a big fun of the show, but paupei got two tickets, i really want to go, as i hv never steped into mediacrop before,but nobody is free, ok lets see....

i asked the following ppl:

1) Paupei's got sch stuff to do
2) Sheena is sick
3) Paupei's godsis, will get back to me
4) My bro said he hv to check his sch schedule

haiz, pls then tell me if all of the above cannot make it then i hv to go alone? i hv wondered to places alone but i am sick and tired of going out alone....anyone want to go?

make me feel better

2007-04-15T06:10:00.000-07:00

Make me feel better, understand wat i am and wat i am going through and advise me accordingly pls.............

so bored

2007-04-15T05:54:00.000-07:00

I was so bored tat i went to the park near my house took take pics when it was raining earlier

depressed

2007-04-15T05:33:00.000-07:00

I am so depressed, i hv this mixture of feelings in me, i am confused and really upsad, i just want to cry and cry, i am very emotional and i hate being emotional shows that i am very weak, but i tried to change but i can't, i am so fed up that i haven't got a job yet, i am so bored, i hv been at home since 1 mar (after my exams), i want to go out but sick and tired of visiting the same places, short of cash too as i am not working yet, just simpliy very bored with life, ppl say this is the best time of ur life, as when u start working there is no free time, i rather be working or do somthing with my life then laz ard. pls my leg is so painful, i just need someone to care for me and understand how i feel.... my paupei is there for me yes, but he too has his own things to do....i just feel like screaming at the top of my lungs to feel better.

whenever i get upsad, i cry alot these days, i dunnoe why, sometimes i feel nobody understands, why i am feelin this way cld be due to my childhood, u know children from broken homes mostly rebel or do other things, in my case i hv seen too much in my childhood, i wld put my taughts and concentration in my sch work a lot, but got very emotional instead for little things that upsad me i will start think alot then cry, i hate to cry, i hv then tat alot in my life, i just want to be happy, nothing eles but happy, laugh and hv peace....somtimes i wonder whether i should visit a Psycrastic, to get my mind checked and to calm myself..... i just feel like shit

2007-04-14T01:52:00.000-07:00

Took this pic, when paupei and i were at the merlion, we enjoy going there as he asked me to be his girlfriend there and i hv always loved the place

this was taken at east coast beach, wqhen i was there with sheena

i made this cake for paupei's 24th bithday but the cake did't turn out nice, but no harm taking pics of it rite...

yewww my ugly feet....

took this pic of sheena..i find it very cute

my goddaughters...

me i had nothing better to do so and up taking pics of myself

sheena's 23rd birthday cake....

this is a pic of my room's notice board as u can see, it had loads of pics of paupei and i

still of my room, in this pic u see the catholic calender, a pic of paupei and i, of edward and a banner of my fav poem

my sky effect ceiling in which i painted myself

paupei's hindustani bride

me in a beanie, paupei likes them but i only like to take pics with them

this is paupei's old hockey jersey, he gave it to me, i feel very happy everytime i wear it, it has his name and my birth date on it

Check up at Tan Tock Seng

2007-04-14T01:07:00.000-07:00

i went for my much awaited appointment at Tan tock seng for my tensoils (i think this is how u spell it) my throat hv been giving probs since Nov last year, visited the doc a million times already still i dun see any improvement.....the doctor asked me to take the medication first, if i am not well in two months time then, its up to me whether i want a surgery.... ermm lets see wat happens, anyways i happened to bump into the chrographer of the saree contents in which i took part in, she gave me her contacts and ask me to join her dance group if i am interested...ermmm shall i? i like danceing but am interested in learning hip hop dance, do not know whether she teaches that..... after the visit i had to go home to get ready for a tea reception hosted by DBS Bank, to tell us more abt the position of financial executive, i must say that the job describtion is very interesting i dun mind giving it a shot, but its still up to them whether they want to hire me, i am just sick and tired of waiting for a reply somewhere for me to get a job, i thought its easy to get a job in the accounts sector but i guess its not that easy after all... after that i went to meet paupei, i went to sprin my leg, it still hurts, but paupei and mom really took care of me thats really sweet of them... i just hope i feel better coz its really getting frustrating......

Into photography?

2007-04-05T04:11:00.000-07:00

Photography is a beautiful thing, i only noe how to take pics of myself i mean i do not noe how to take pics artistically... but i want to try photography, i went to east coast beach with sheena recently and i took a pic of the beach...it may not be a gd pic...but i like it and got inspired by this pic...

my goddaughters

2007-04-05T03:46:00.000-07:00

Oh boy i love my goddaughters, they are so sweet and adorable, they are twins, there is always difficulty is telling them apart...watching them, carrying them, playing with them...makes me want to have twins one day on my own....

Here a pic of my goddaughters and I

Rony(the older twin) and me..

Whats Wrong

2007-04-05T03:33:00.000-07:00

ermmm.... The reason why i have not been blogging for so long is because, i tried to log on to blogger but i couldn't it kept prombting that i have keyed in a wrong password, i tried again today and walah! i could log in....

Ermm... exams are over, got my results and finally graduaged from polytechnic already yea man, but my official graduation is in July..

I always wanted to work for IRAS as a TaX Officer, i applied on paupei's birthday, 22 Feb, still no reply, i called them they said the deadline is on 23 of mar and that it will take them abt 3 weeks to shortlist....oh man that's really long, i have already weighted so long for them.. I decieded not to just wait for IRAS and looked for jobs in other places, DBS Bank called me to go for a tea refreshment without an interview yet maybe the interview is after the tea refreshment and that is on the 10 of April, i got another interview with citibank next Thursday, i went for an interview today at Singapore Chinese Chamber of Commence, for a local accounting firm, but its not a accounting related job its a corporate secretarial job, i dun know if i want to do somthing outside accountancy... the manager who interviewed me seems pleased with me i guess my chances are very high...but the question is whether i want the job... haiz i am very confused and lost right now....Why can't IRAS respond quickly...

hey ppl....

2007-02-11T20:27:00.000-08:00

Hey, i have been so busy, its no joke, i know i haven't been blogging for decades, well got the time and inspiration to blog now, life has been good, heath no good at all, saw the doc 3 times already, make it 4, will be seeing the doc again later, well my troat is giving me problems, well my final exams are ard the corner baby, then its bye bye poly and hello work force....haiz, so not looking forward to any of those things hehe,but am looking forward to Valentine's Day, it will be my first time celebrating V day with my boyfriend, the other years i spent it with Sheena, but its really going to be odd not celebrating V day with sheena this year, coz its always been her and me. 16th will be our 4th month togather gosh, i can't believe how time flies haha.... take care

my paupei and i.....

am back...can't believe my last entry was in june

2006-11-20T20:29:00.000-08:00

wow, its been months since my last entry, well how is life for me in the following areas:

school: stressed (as usual)
family: good
bestfriend: good (wish it was excellent, i hv not been spending enough time with sheena, there is nothing wrong with us, we are cool, its just tat 24/7 is not enough 4 me.
friends: sister gang (ok), as for the rest not to bad, everyone is busy
work: i feel lazy to work, but got to work
health: been poor this year, hope to be healthier next year
love: excellent (yap excellent)

i'll try to update as closely as i can with my life since june, ok i will just update from after my examination in aug, 4got wat happened b4 tat, anyways, i passed all modules, am back in sch now 4 my last semester, its 2nd wk of sch, i must clear and pass all modules and gratuate as i should next yr mar 2007, so afaird to retake...haiz

during the holidays i worked in cpf building, in the call centre from 5 sep to 4 nov, it was a good exprience dealed with good and bad members, i figured tat customer service is not my cup of tea.....

when to bangkok as planned earlier in the year, on 5 oct to 8oct, i love bangkok, shopping paradise man, bought lots of stuff back, food is good, i finally got to eat dunkit dounuts again after so many yrs when they were here in singapore, i think the last i ate them was in primary sch man... i bought 1 big box back hehe.... will try to upload the pics soon..

then came 9 oct, this day is special for me, now when i think back, coz i met(talked on the phone) someone thru sheena, he is her classmate, actually i saw him before twince when i waited for sheena after her class. thought he was cute, he also asked sheena abt me, then thru her we exchanged no, got attached and am very happy now, he is amazing, wonder where he was all my life, hope we will stay this way and better, already can't imagine my life without him, not only is he amazing but his family 2, he met mine, they like him too... i call him paupei, coz he is precious!

haha, pls dun laugh anyone reading this, i was picked from the street to enter a miss saree queen competition, yap, i never tied a saree before in my life i was very reluctant to join, but my family was like encouraging me to join and i did, and then withdrawn from it,then someone eles spotted me and also asked me to join wow two strangers asked me to join the same competition, is it a sign? will then i rejoined, the competition was fun, catwalked in heels, got a consolation award...

my company law lect called me last friday, to pose for a shoot for nyp open house, as he needed accountancy students i said ok, the shoot is on 7 dec.

the story..............

2006-06-28T01:02:00.000-07:00

yo..... was going through my stuff in my room during the holidays and i came across my year 1 poly marketing book. Well this is embrassing but, i used to write stories in it during my lectures... what kind of stories well... i used to write like "love stories" for sheena and sau khum (g4 member) love stories meaning them with their crushes at that time.... well they really liked it, i write it in away i would want my love life to be...then i thought to myself one day during one boring maketing lecture which is at 6pm every week through out the term that hey why not write love stories with me in it and who ever you noe.... so i write everyweek in my maketing book, every lecture 1 chapter managed to write i think abt 9 to 10 chaps lol, the storey is abt who i expect my love life to be after gratuation, who i would like to meet and how it when....every week i allow my friends to read them and they look forward to reading it every week hahahaha....

class gathering during term break

2006-06-28T00:43:00.000-07:00

here i am after a long break again, well my term break was just over, my holiday when fine, had a class gathering at east coast park we bbq, when cycling, played water bomb and in the sea, played captains ball, ruby and football (in which i could not kick for nuts and on top of that i played with the guys) the wheather was not kind to us, it was pretty much raining a little and the sky was dark BUT hey just the way i like it, i noe people like it when the sun is out when they are at the beach and stuff but i dun really fancy the sun that much atleast since i stopped training in basketball. But it was a perfect day for picture taking hahah, took lots of pics of the sea and urs truly of course. But unfortunately, for some reasons i can't upload here ermmm.... but i will not stop trying through. When swimming too during the holidays with sheena, the people i hang out with is very little it is mostly with sheena, my sister gang or family... then when to work and did my projects and tutorials. Pretty much boring huh, cause my days were really short, each day during the holiday i woke up at about 12 noon lol...well it was the holoidays right.

mad rush....

2006-06-05T05:43:00.000-07:00

bonjour! well the last 3 weeks was a mad rush, test after test, presentation after projects, reports and tutorials i am very glad that it is almost over, i am already cheering for my term break next week wohoooo!! haha, well lots of stuff happened in my absence here,sheena is back in town, i when clubing for the first time,ermm tat's all i guess....... .ahha! planning a trip to bangkok for real with the sisters yeah! will update all that when time permits, anyways i dun now abt u guys abt, when i blog i just type my entries and not read them, when i read my entries i realized that majority of them are negative my god it is so depressing reading my entries man... so i have deceied and with a little advice from someone (yes you chicky) i am going to add positive stuff too and not just blog when i am down ermmm, remember in one of my entries i mentioned that 3 people insulted me like in my day regarding my size, well its strange but 3 people also complimented me 2 weeks later haha. what happened was i went to the clinic to get my constipation checked and the nurse kept looking at me, just kept on looking i was so uncomfortable then another nurse came and also stared looking at me, gosh that was so weried, when i went over becoz it was my turn to see the doc, the nurse said i was very pretty and had very nice feachers (is tat how u spell it)i was shocked and happy of coz wow, tat really made my day after that 2 more people said tat i was good looking..haha i am not being thick skinned but i really do appreciate compliments thank you to those 3 :)

i am vain or just two self-concious

2006-05-10T04:31:00.000-07:00

well, i am so sick and fed up with the fact that i have been training in the gym for like 3 mths now, three times a week 2.5 hrs a day, and i only lost 3kg, wat's up with that? how would you feel if u have been working out after a whole day of work, already so tired, your brain functions like a dead person's. And it just took one day to ruin all that, well this is wat happened,

person #1: Hey andrea, have u had dinner?
me: well, kinda i had a pau?
person#1 huh u had a pau? but u urself look like a pau!!
me: a******

Two more person said i was "big" on the same day, i felt like crap, i mean dun go around telling people you look big, u look look like a pau even if you noe that this person have been eating like a begger and have been working out frequently it is really unfair, here i am trying to love myself, how too if people won't just keep their feakin mouth shut!! i am so so damn pesst off, if u guys weren't my friend i would have given you a very nice thrashing verbally of cause, who needs your remaks you look like crap urself.....

haized, sometimes i just want to stay in bed and cry, scream, i did't ask to have a big frame, big bones to have a bad immune system, i am still suffering from constipation, maybe thats one of the reasons why my weight is taking so long to lose, for the last two days, my tummy felt so bloated that i had to force to puke, it was terrible, in the morning i have to wake up with a burning sensation in my adominal, my tummy is just screwed.... on top of that i have to deal with bull s***, at times i just dun want to leave my house because i feel F.A.T, or would think that people will find me fat, big, enormous wat ever u noe.... i take so long to doll myself up, make-up, rebonded hair, contact lens but is it worth it? well... i guess i just have to be stronger and have a thicker skin then i already have, with stupit remarks? that people make without thinking...

Took this a month back i think, i refuse to take a fuller pics as the fats will show especially around my arms...

where r u when i need u...

2006-05-10T04:21:00.000-07:00

sheena has gone to L.A for holiday, she left the day after labour day, the day i start sch, i want to tell her so many things, ask her opinion on things but where is she when i need her enjoying herself in L.A! lol, well i am very happy for her, as she has planed to go on this trip for like decades and finally she is there she called me twice, she might extend she stay, i dun noe when she'll be back just can't wait for that day... its just that sheena is the second most important person after my family in my life, as for the man in my life in time to come he will be third hehe.... sheena is like my non-blood related sister anyone who knows me know that.

hey shinez, if you are reading this in your end of the world
i just can't wait for you to return to Singapore and u don't need to remind me to kill you when i see you for extending your trip.l... take care and behave ya.....

played football with...my baby cousin..

2006-05-10T04:11:00.000-07:00

haha, played football with edward aka ah boy my baby cousin, well if we go out people think he's my son.... wats up with tat?....haiz, anymore, a piece of advice if you really really wanna burn calories just play football with a toddler, i bet u, u will lose all the weight u want yup, we had fun u noe kicking the ball, into the drain, then among the flower bed, eddy and i make a perfect team because we both play football like toddlers hehe.....

take this snap in the middle of out game

the boys threw me out of their team....my bro and ahboi

while wating the boys play managed to get a pic with my grandma

day out with the sisters...

2006-05-10T04:03:00.000-07:00

finally, after decades the sister gang went out togather yea all 7 of us togather which in very likely, we met up last friday since there was no sch, we met at 10.30, went to the k-box spent like 4 hours there lol, well i never thought i would have so much fun singing lol it was cool, then we went over to bugis walked around a little, rested and ate like there was no 2moro in some steamboat place, went over to suntec decided to catch M.I 3 at the last minute, well the movie was good liked the action and gedgits in it..... it was a super long day of fun...

hey, sister gang when is our next outing? can't wait!!!

sch sucks

2006-05-10T03:52:00.000-07:00

well yea school sucks bad times, i was really excieted on getting out of my industrial attachment and into a new semester of sch....i dun noe i guess i am just so sick and tired of studying doing tutorial....etc i mean once upon a time i was really into studying and doing all my tutorials but now i am just fed up i guess so sick of words and numbers, i need help and motivation... i just can't get anything into my head during any of my lectuers and tutorials..H.E.L.P, i can't go on like this? i am totally helpless this is the worse semester of my life and its only the second week of sch, or maybe i am just two involved juggling two part-time jobs, but the jobs are not texing, ahhhh....i am taking int'buz, int' finance, co. law, accounting information system, report writing, published accounts, just 6 moudles out of which only 4 are examinable... i am freaking out

my new nerdy looking specs..actually its kinda cool dun u think

working in the ministry

2006-04-21T08:10:00.000-07:00

ermmm, its already 10 weeks into my industrial attachment just 1 more week to go and then back to the world of endless test, boring lectures, projects and homework haiz...... i am really lucky to be able to work in the ministry of foerign affairs, i get to audit mission accounts like berlin, tokyo, wellington, paris did income tax for MFA Club and many other things, i was the only intern attached there can you imagine how lonley that is, well i eventually got over it explored the place alone, went to tanglin mall, gleaneagles for lunch, during lunch time i use the gym in mfa or use the library or the internet all in mfa..... it was really a good experience, the funny thing is that i was never really close to any staff there, but as time when by i had a chance to work with all the staff in the finance department and its only this week that i went out with them during lunch, we talked alot about "the working life" i must say my mind set is more open now, i am soooo not looking forward to the working life lots of politics, i feel closer to my colleagues now but its sad that i will be living next week boo.... they did invite me for lunch many times earlier i turned their offer down because i was not taking meat for 40 days during lent and often bring my own food, but i did feel that if only i did join them for lunch earlier when they called i would have known them better...........

oreo cheese cake

2006-03-30T21:40:00.000-08:00

it was sheena my dearest best friend's birthday on 17 mar friday, turning 22, wow how fast does time fly man, i felt like her 21 birthday was not long ago and now she is 22....well i wish the best for her, she deserves the best becuase she is the best..hehe...we had fun on her b'day we went to hard rock cafe for dinner, they announced her b'day there and an ice cream sundae was on the house they took a picture of us and give her the pic, complimentry by HRC, then we went to catch the date movie at 11.20pm, wow it is the funniest movie my god its recommended... and i made sheena my famous oreo chesse cake (opps, am i too thick skinned) ahh who cares i love my cake.....

check out my room, i kinda put the pictures around an ACCA calendar, near my study table, can't wait to be a CPA

i a m back

2006-03-25T08:08:00.000-08:00

hi i am back, took a break from blogging haha, well i will try to updated as closely as i can, the following took place when i was not blogging:

1) broke up with my boyfriend
2) had exams (even got back the results lol)
3) am on attachment
4) already into my gym training
5) sheena turned 22

well, yeah i broke up with my boyfriend of two weeks, reason is simple we got attached to soon before we could know each other better, when we broke up no one was heart or unhappy, i think if one wants to start a relationship they should be friends for quite sometime before getting involved, lesson learned for me.... well, i think relationships are a waste of time or i have not met the rite person yet.....

i am attached.......but feels like i am not

2006-01-25T05:26:00.000-08:00

well yea i am finally attached for like over 2 weeks now.....finally haha.....well we met on the net, not the other guy, well but the strange think is tat they both have similar qualities... like both work in the army, o level holders but discontinued their diploma, smokes, same race kinda...... portuagese (is tat how u spell it) erm....and many more i guess, but i feel chris and i started off too early and he is a very busy man, we hardy talk on the phone only sms, in the 2 weeks we only met twice, we went novena togather on both dates, never had a probper date.... u noe i actually borrowed 3 books on love and relationships just to keep me updated as i am new to this.... my first bf, i was very dissappointed when he did't call me as he was busy by the time he gets home its like pass 12 am and he has to wake up at 6am the same day....so i become more understanding.....the book says, when a gal likes someone she would want to see or talk to the person everyday but for guys when they are tired the last thing they want to do is talk...they would give up their personal life if there is problem at work....ermm so i did not mind if he does not call....but the disadvantage is tat i am losing my feelings for him, ya i dun thing i like him anymore.....how did i noe well when we when for mass the second time i was not nervous or anything, it just felt like he was not my bf u noe.....when we were going home, he kissed me on my check but yet it did not feel special to me....why???......i dun noe how to tell him this.... but i will after my exams....cause its even so hard to tell him noe tat we hardly talk on the phone and sms.....

chris and i....sori got to block

ah boi...............

so cute..............

the pact

2006-01-25T05:20:00.000-08:00

i just remembered abt the pact that cristy and the rest of my ite classmates made while we were studying there in 2003, the pact was to meet in the same place same time but 5yrs later... cool huh wow 2 more yrs to go....on apr 28 2008 at 2 somthing in the afternoon (i think must check i wrote down somewhere) i remember lionel saying like whether if u are in overseas at that time, at work, in the toilet or even giving birth whatever we got to be there....hahaha.... well i can't wait to see how many people remembered and will turn up.....can't wait

time to catch up

2006-01-25T05:01:00.000-08:00

wow its been a long time since i blogged, reason being i was absent from sch for too long so i had anot of catching up to do........well exams are on 6,7,8,9 and 10 feb not stop it will be a rollercaster ride for me no break.....i am so not lookinf forward to it....this semester is a big screw up for me as i have been really lazy....after tep (attachment) haiz.... i can't wait for IPP (industrial attachment) during my holiday.....but why put it during our holidays we are working non stop like god noes wat since yr 1........ahhhh can anyone hear me screaming with a white flag...... after 1 month of chicken pox ia got sick again i am down with flu again and fever seriously i dun noe wats wrong with me....i need to get me checked.....

the feeling

2006-01-11T05:48:00.000-08:00

erm...the feeling of liking someone is special but being liked by someone is even more special.....i borrowed 3 books on love..... and the books are amazing.....

i am yours,
you are mine,
of this we are certain.
You are lodged in my heart,
the small key is lost,
You must stay there forever......

we find rest in those we love,
and we provide a resting place in
ourselves for those who love us....

love is the bridge
between two hearts.....

it takes two to speak
the truth: one to speak,
and another to hear.....

had chicken pox

2006-01-11T04:51:00.000-08:00

yap had chicken pox on xmas day how lucky is that, what happened was after i reach home from p.s on friday, my body was aching all over, but i didn't had fever but it felt like i did, then the next day i work up with a very sore body i taught maybe its due to the cold whether and the side effects of being a 21 year old...since its only a week after my birthday haha... anyways i was shivering in church during mid-night mass...i was feelin awful, but still i did'nt noe what was wrong with me.... then on xmas day just as i was to wake up, i felt a itch below my neck and somthing came out of it, showed it to my mom then she said it was chicken pox, dam chicken pox on xmas day oh man, so i had to ask my sister not to come to the house , i also could not go to sheena and my grandma's house so sad i was stuck at home when everyone went out but its ok my aunt came to the house anyways and i had the tv to company me, i had fever for like 5 days, saw the doc on tuesday after the public holiday it was confirmed to be chicken pox, did some blood test and discovered that i had insufficient iron and there was a lump in my throat in which i have to go changi hospital to check it out on 12 jan but am not going as i do not have the time, i had mc for like 2 weeks and i am only back in sch today after my last day of sch on 15 dec...wow long huh...well i really missed going to sch and seeing my sister gang..... but i feel so much better now no worries....

wow its been donkey yrs

2006-01-11T04:14:00.000-08:00

wow its been donkey years since i blogged but i promise to update as closely as possible ok....erm lets start with me highlighting my hair two days before xmas, just to get a new look and everything i went to far east plaza to do my hair...and i was happy with the result haha...my butt was so sore after tat because i had to seat down for like 4 and a half hrs that is longer then rebounding man..... haha....after that needed to buy sheena her xmas present at P.S, So i had to walk like from far east plaza to p.s...u see i love walking but, u can't imagine how heavy the human traffic was my god it was terrible with a capital T, i really didn't expect so many people in town seriously...maybe its like tat every yr and that i did't noe.....ermmm

me ungrateful

2005-12-21T10:09:00.000-08:00

Someone whom i have kown for a very long time...mentioned somewhere that i was ungrateful, it is really sad, this person said it indirectly but i noe this person was pointing to me, it is really hurting for this person to say that i am ungrateful just because i voiced my opinion? all because i honestly said how i felt, all i wanted was for this person to respect my privacy and not misuse it, i HATE people who put words in my mouth or say things that i never said in the first place especially without my permission.....it is wrong to tell this person whom i have know for sooo long, how i truly felt abt this persons actions, why must this person take it in the wrong way and say that i was ungrateful....i am gratful that's why i was willing to give up my dream and what i wanted to do for this person, i was willing to do want this person wanted to do all because i was grateful for what this person has done for me.... i noe i am lucky and everything but this person should not have said what this person have said at this place......now there is no turning back because i am truly hurt i taught this person knew me inside out but i was wrong...

to the person: not to worry i won't use vurgarity....cause i am desent!

my 21st birthday

2005-12-21T09:57:00.000-08:00

well.....i would like to thank everyone who came to my party and thank you very much for the gifts, i really love it thank you again....well i was only happy after 7pm on my birthday when i saw my friends.... see the whole day before that was the worse day of my life, i noe i should not be saying that but it really was not a happy b'day it was a very sad birthday, i waited so long for this day and worked so hard to earn enough to have a party for myself but my family is enough to make it worse for me......why? i am seriously getting fed up staying in my house i can;t wait for the day that i move out........my whole life has been abt my family fighting why can't they stop when will this end, i can't stand this anymore i wish i could go somewhere far away from them you noe i want peace and love in my life....i feel that i have alot of love to give but to no one, i don't want to give it to someone who takez it for granted or dose not return it...i need to feel and be loved too...i am only human.......

hey...life is good

2005-12-14T04:49:00.000-08:00

well...well... its been a long time since i blogged...partly because i have tons of tutorials, projects and test to take care of....but everything is ok now, next week onwards is my two weeks term break...can't wait...and hey, its my b'day week, can't wait to turn 21 finally i guess i waited too long...anyways, what has been going on in my life, lately my life is getting interesting because i am talking to someone on the phone i won't put it in details but, i really enjoy talking to him, this guy is really sweet, considerate and the list goes on...but i am glad that we are talking on the phone and stuff, we met twice he is a true gentleman......well we will see how things will turn out for us...hope the future will be good....

my grandma bought a dgi cam today so i was playing and exploring it, and manged to come up with the following...

well this is my b'day dress but unfortunatly my grandma don't like it as she says it looks like a maternity dress, i thought so to at first but later relised that it is fashion victorien gown kinda style, my best friend and mom made me buy it...i did't like it when i bought it but now i like it........ahhh we will see what happends....

weight loss no more...

2005-11-22T12:55:00.000-08:00

well i wanted to loose tans of weight by my b'day but eversince sch started 5 weeks ago i have been stuffing my face with food....and jucks...hope i did not put back the weight i lost, i have no time for gym, my twist and shape is under repair, haha maybe i was too heavy, so sad i missed twist and shapeing suppose to go jogging every morning with yi ting in sch but it has been raining alot.....i need help, and it is less than a month to my b'day......boy i need help.... o la la.....

pissed !!

2005-11-22T11:49:00.000-08:00

last weekend i was geeting pissed with anyone and everyone....as alot of stuff happened regarding my project ans sch work... i have like 2 common test everyweek till my term break in mid dec... i had taxation last week and had to hand in my ict project, had accounts yesterday, got to noe the speech for accounts seminar on wed, have to perpare for presentation on thur and biz finance test on fri (which i dun understand a thing abt). Costing and biz law, french test and law seminar next week, the week after that projects and other seminars god hope to be alive at the end of it....! o lala (a sign in french)

all souls day

2005-11-22T11:40:00.000-08:00

went to pray my respects to my tata (grandfather) its been 10 yrs, wow he was a wonderful man, very thoughtful and sincere very talented too he sings very well sung on television before in the early 70s.....i missed him.....love u grandpa.....always will pray for ur soul to rest in peace!!... after that we went to shop at boon lay, then courts was having offer on their mp3... unsual price was $199 but now is $119...so i bought it and have not stopped lisenting to it since.....just love it... my first student went away after 2 lessons out of which the agency took the money, i did't get a cent, my student could not make it for lessons as she was studying for her other papers just then another student came by, he wanted just four lessons till his accounts paper on 16 nov (wed) , so i taught him on sat, sun, mon and tue.... wow back to back i was so tired, then my first student also wanted lessons for mon and tue, so on these two days i had to teach twice but it was worth it...i managed to get enough fund for my b'day, but no more caterer....so my mother decided to cook for like 50 people.....oh well... avour!! (bye bye in french)

when to escape theme park on helloween weekend

2005-11-22T11:14:00.000-08:00

yes sheena and i went to escape on a saturday, it was very fun i had a blast, there were free foutune tellers chiness plam reading, hindu parrot and tarrot cards.... sheena and i went for all three readings, well we noe that we are not suppose to get our fortune read and everythings as it is sin but we wanted to check it out for fun and not believe it in the end......so the very first one was the hindu parrot reading, well it said my house is very powerful with jesus and that i am smart can't remember the rest, next was the chiness palm reading, he said i was lousy at relationships (which my mom, grandma and i agree in) he said i will be sucessful in the future, my job will require me to travel and deal with people (SIA???) and that i can only marry after 26 yrs old meaning 27..... if i marry before that my relationship with my "husband" will not be stable.....ok!! then we waited years for the tarrot card reading....which we regradted, she said i must take risk in relationships, be honest be my self open to opportunities.... oh well, the rides were fun but i was feelin giddy and un well especially after the ship thing whatever u call it, we went on the boat thing which you will go down from abt 2 or three storeys and get wet, we ride that abt 3 times hahah...but missed the car riding as it was too late we went to the haunted house twice....man was it scary sheena and i were screeming like there was no 2moro....hahah

wow blogging after 1 month...

2005-11-22T10:58:00.000-08:00

its been a long time since i have blogged man!! 1 month....alot of things have happened in that 1 month i will try to update as closely as i can.....well these are the things that happened...

1) went to escape theme park for the very first time with sheena
2) went to visit my grandfather's grave on his 10 death annerwisary
3) bought my first mp3
4) give tuition to two students
5) lots of conflicts with people
6) very busy with sch work, test and projects
7) my birthday planning
8) my weight loss program disaster......
and many more......

teaching is fun.........

2005-10-22T18:37:00.000-07:00

my first lesson was on thursday and it was great, i really enjoyed teaching accounts, my student was very cooperative i taught her correction of errors and the things to take note when doing trading profit and loss and balance sheet as there are always somthing hidden in the question.....my next lesson was suppose to be on sat but her grandma was admitted in the hospital tuition is rescheduled on monday, i will refresh COE, teach non-trading organisation and accounting ratios................. my weekend was ok i hardly watched tv the whole week, i was reading my notes on sunday, could not understand what i read maybe because after a long time i donated blood again, the blood drive was held in my church, i donated straight after mass, this will be the forth time that i donated suppose to be the 5th time but what happend was the last time i got rejected due to the lack of iron in my blood......glad that i could donate again...

me with my hair up..........

tutorials....

2005-10-19T18:17:00.000-07:00

my head feels like it has been hit by a bus as i have just completed 11 questions of my costing tutorial and 6 questions of my accounts tutorial thought of doing my biz law but to think again i better not before i explode....i was looking at the various regulation of the companies act guess what i could not figure out a thing.....i was made module rep for buz law (good luck to me) it feels weird doing tutorial after 6 months of tep (attachment) but i tell myself to get used to it this is only the first week of sch..... i am teaching o' level accounts tomorro, i kinda forgot partnership accounts, goodwil, control account and some more of other accounts i pray and hope that it will come back to me once i revise, i really want to teach my student well, i want her to score A....i can do it. wish me luck...............

first day of sch/...

2005-10-17T05:09:00.000-07:00

first day of sch was a very short one suppose to end at 12pm class ended at 10.30am cool huh i like, i am a little familier with taxation, costing accounting and bux accounts from ite, but hv no idea what buz law and buz finance will be like, on wednesday and thursday i am force to skip some lessons to work in sch lab for two weeks, i don't want to skip classes as i never didt and dun intend to... i don't mind if there is no teaching but i am sure there will be in the scond week, i received a call from the same tuision agency asking me whether i could a o' level student accounts, for 4 lessons i will get $180, 2 hrs per session it is a pretty gd deal so i accepted only untill the o'level which is for about 3 weeks i think. first lesson is on thursday wish me luck i hope i did't 4get anything after 6 months of attachment....i am glad some of my b'day stuff are getting settled, like the booking and the caterer..............

not satisfied........

2005-10-16T17:57:00.000-07:00

i am not satisfied with my weight as it is not moving at all, i guess my body is used to my diet and excerise, over these pass two months i did't really stick to soup i had a little somthing every now and then, from monday onwards it is extracly 2 months to my b'day and i need to lose more weight... my instructor whom i work with in the gym (zul) said he would help me lose weight and tone my body, we need to find a day to fit into our schedule, he also said he would teach me self-defence, as he knows about 6 martiaL arts cool huh.... can't wait..

Half day in JB..........

2005-10-16T16:22:00.000-07:00

When to JB, with sheena and my mom, finally we could go after asking sheena for a long time, i am glad she really enjoyed herself and shopping what was missing was the limited time to shop.... the movie just like heaven is a wonderfull movie i really liked it as for the skelaton key, the movie was not what i expected it to be....... my weekend was terrible, had a family meeting to settle some stuff and at the end it was a deraster....which spoilt my mood ............

just received my new module timetable....

2005-10-11T20:19:00.000-07:00

yeah, i got the elective that i opted for, the french language....i am very happy that i got it always wanted to study french finally the time has come, i am quite happy with my time table, i am starting my new semester next week, yes so soon with no holidays..."thanks to tep" (my attachment) call me crazy but i can't wait to start school again kinda missed it and when i go through that you will hear me complaining......haha.. i am mentally preparing myself to work hard this semester, i must pay attention in lectures no more day light dreaming for me........

right now am listening to kelly clarkson's song "because of you" just fell in love with the song.............. awww...

happy being single.............

2005-10-09T19:07:00.000-07:00

yes i said it i am happy being single, i enjoy spending my time wisely with my family, sheena and myself.... i have no time for boyfriends, i can't imagine myself hogging on the phone for hours all night like my friends, cry or get distracted when there is a misunderstanding in the relationship and watch my studies get affected just like that because of one person, spending time with him, when i should be studying, doing tutorials or doing projects especially when i am starting my 2nd semester soon.. no way..., when i was working in the gym last friday, zul the instructor asked me whether i had a boyfriend...

zul: so andrea, do u have a boyfriend....

me: erm..no (smiling)

zul: WHAT! really, don't lie, are u sure?

me: yes! no boyfriend, never had one....

zul: "SHOCKED!!" never had one, r u pulling my leg?

me: (laughing) really never had one................

zul: but why?

me: (did't noe how to answer that) i don't know, maybe because i was in a all girls school for 10 years, shy around guys, dunnoe how to talk to them and afraid of relationships...

i really hate answering to two questions, do u have a boyfriend? and what is your race?

i am sick and tired of answering to both questions, when people ask i feel like tatooing on my forehead, "i am indian BUT roman catholic and no i don't have boyfriends......."

then zul asked:

zul: what is your race?

me: (thinking) ("oh man" i hate answering this question as i have answered many times) guess?

zul: ermmm... i dun noe....r u mixed?

me: (just for fun) mixed with what?

zul: no clue!

and i answered for the 1,000,000 time........................

real or not........

2005-10-06T19:34:00.000-07:00

oh my goss, u should see theses pics, which my friend sent through e-mail, u will not believe it but these are actually baby biscuits....

i am happy for sheena.............

2005-10-04T20:21:00.000-07:00

oh........... i am so happy for sheena, she has found the one "m", finally at least one of us has found somone, she is very happy, whenever we go out she is always talking about "M" 24/7, i can tell how fond sheena is of "m", even M is fond of sheena from the way they talk on the phone and everything, she is almost thinking about m, same for m, they talk before m go to sleep and after m gets up from sleep, apprently for m, sheena is the first and last person she talks to everyday how sweet is that.....well their "thing" (i dun noe what u call it) is not complete as you know m lives in L.A, so they never met only saw each other on photo and heard each other's voice on the phone.... this is what i call life, as nothing is really perfect there tend to be some complications some how when you really like someone...........but i really hope, fingers and toes all crossed that everything will be find with them..........sheena you should get the happiness you deserve.......................

what is wrong with me...........

2005-10-04T04:55:00.000-07:00

i am begining to think if there is somthing wrong with me..... why? let me explain, my sister is talking to a boy or should i say boys on the phone, my bro, yes my bro is talking to a chinese gal on the phone and me i dun even talk on the phone, i live a boring life remeber, guess what they have nickname for each other my bro is known as blacky and his gal is known as whitey, and he told my sister that he was going to save up money to watch movie with her and my mother's b'day is around the corner on 8 october and why did't he think of saving money to buy her a gift instead as he never bought one before in his life, what the h*** right..........

got the flu bug.............

2005-09-29T18:45:00.000-07:00

yea, i feel like s*** right now, i have flu the cold, oh man, my whole body is aching, my knees feel weak, and my nose are blocked and where am i where i should be at home, well i am in my school lab doing my lab duty, thought of taking mc, but i have my HR duty to do plus the student union meeting 2morrow... oh man, i received a call from a tuition centre it seems that they are looking for a accounts tutor for a o' level student, i must teach twice a week and get paid $300 a month great deal huh, but after she called the parents and guess what they prefer a undergraduate to teach accounts, well it is fine with me, but atleast i studied accounts for about 4 years now issit that good enough.

block leave around the corner

2005-09-26T17:21:00.000-07:00

yeah, next week is my block leave, i ahave no plans yet, i would proberly be working i think depends on the gym schedule which is not out yet, last weekend was the only weekend after along time i stayed home on saturday and half of sun, it felt so good watching tv lazying around but ate alot too which means extra pounds of fat in me and extra exercise is desprately needed....ahhhhhh, the instructor in the gym told me how to exercise, he said since i have been eating just yong tau foo and twisting and shaping everyday, my body would noe what to do and would be used to loosing/tonning that particular area in the body, he said why dun i try somthing different like adding in more excercise or instead of twisting and shaping wht not climb the steps. Erm... i thought of jogging in the morning on mon, wed and fri, suppose to jog today but could not wake up, i need encouragement people.........i have to start jogging no more sleeping longer, i need to loose more weight man.

quit guardian...........

2005-09-26T17:08:00.000-07:00

finally yesterday was my last day working for guardian, i dun feel comfortable working there, as it as far from home and the job scope is just to much for me to handle, i still have two part-time jobs the school ,lab assistant and gym attendant, yes i got that job the pay is so much better and it is nearer to my home can save on transport, student union are organising a special reception event, i am in the committee i am in charge of the welfer, i dun noe much bout the duties miting is on wednesday, am looking forward to it, guess what.....it is embrassing for me to say it but i have applied to join the nyp models, my sch are looking for models to take photograph for some posters, banners extra to promote nyp i guess, if i am chosen they will inform me via phone by oct or nov. It was a last minute think, i did't expect that i would apply, i dun noe what i was thinking, we'll see how it goes. I have stopped going for drama practise for abt i think 2 months now due to work commitments, i feel alittle strange going back for practise after along time, first i stopped going for basketball training and now stage arts whats wtrong with me, i can't i stay in a place for long, i just hope i will stay in Student Union for long term, as i due like planning for events after being in events management.

lovely sentosa......

2005-09-22T05:12:00.000-07:00

sheena brought me to sentosa on friday, i went there by cable car, and it was our first time travelling on it, it was just her and me on the cable car....when it took off i was so scard as i am afraid of heights, we both screamed like there was no 2morrow, it was so freaking scary my god, we disd not move at all, but after awhile i was fine, it was kinda fun actually....hahah..we sit on the luge and the bench car...i had a wonderful time....

no more chalet....

2005-09-19T22:23:00.000-07:00

yap i have decided not to do with a chalet for my b'day, as it will involve alot of work and planning and stuff, i would just do it with a bbq, i think that is better and also nearer to my home, i dun have to worry about leaving coco, baby and nana alone at home if i had a chalet, my grandmother is turning 60 this friday and my mom's birthday is also coming soon in october or shall i have my bbq in east coast instead, boy am i confused....my caterer still havent given me the menu yet, as she is busy...oh well.....i need to cut my fringe.....

financial crises again!!

2005-09-13T11:14:00.000-07:00

oh man, from 2day after 3.30pm all the way to sunday i am off from school as we get to claim for the extra hours we spent for the surveying, just on the 7 of this month my mother received her pay and now she is left with no money, my pay is on the 20th of this month, and i only have a few dollars in my account, i spent most of my money buying the second hand handphone, now i am left with $20, till the 20th, that include my breakfast, lunch and dinner, my brother is sick, and needs to see the doctor so i lend my mother the $20, she know that, that is all i have, my team members wants to eat in a sushi restaurant 2morrow since we are off and everything, but i can't go, no money, can't eat on diet and i am working. i did't tell them the reason why i only told them that i have to work, but i hope they will understand i feel really bad that i can't go, i don't understand how my mother spents her money, i noe majority are on bills, other then giving me allowance, she never spends on me, i never ask her for anything, i don't eat at home she is always spending money for my siblings, but they thing is they don't appreciate her efforts, that is annoying, they could get a part-time job like me, they have more time to spare compared to me, why not put it to use....atleast i am glad that i am independant, i am so sick of this financial crises, everytime atleast once a month there will be one, why must i be the one that almost suffer and give in....i am sooooo pissed off right now..................

relationships??????

2005-09-12T11:03:00.000-07:00

hi after g4 reunion, i went to meet sheena, we had a great time as usual, no offence but i was wondering what guys look for in a gal, because all along i thought they go for looks, (as there is no meaning for inner beauty anymore) the stucture meaning the body, is this the only two factors or whether or not she is cute.... what about if she has brains or not... i dunoe.... from my observation i see guys going for gals that are pretty, has a good body, small but with no brains...yeah i am serious.. haha anyway, i noe of people who are not very beautiful or not very thin getting attached, and their "other half" is actually quite good looking, i think these people will have a longer relationship togather because they don't go for looks and stuff they only see if their heart is beautiful...that is what i want, sheena and i spend so much looking our best, with make-up, rebounding, dressing up, cream and other stuff, but what is the point....

i hate going out and looking at people kissing or hugging, in the mrt, dark corners or on the esclators it is very anoying, can't they get a room or somthin, is obvious that they are togather for physical pleasure as most of them are only in secondary school, i see kids maybe bearly in secondary school smoking, what is this??? so young and smoking, i can't imgaine if i ever have kids of my own what kind of environment they will leave in......

there is no gal's day out without taking pictures....haha the following were taken at heeren..

for more pics pls go to my flickl.........

photographed by sheena ann marie conceicao

yeah...received my grade....

2005-09-11T19:40:00.000-07:00

yup i finally recieved my grades yesterday for my last stopover, events management and roadshow, i got and A, i worked really hard for it, i am happy as i had a wonderful time working for my team, they are all great, 1 more month from now i will start classical, meaning back to studying, CA, projects and examinations. i am mentally preparing myself for that now, the subjects that i will be taking is;
1) Accounting
2) Costing
3) Finance
4) Buz Law
5) National Education
6) Taxation
7) and my elective the french language....(hope i will get it)
8) and some other subject ????

wow, i heard from my friends that this semester is very difficult, so no more day dreaming, writing stories in my notes during lecture, i must must pay more attention and do all my tutorials with 101% efforts.....i hope......i don't want to retain or do sub-papers i really want to gratuate in apr 2007.....without any delay......

G4 reunion!!!!!

2005-09-11T19:25:00.000-07:00

well who is G4, they were my click when we were in ite, we always hang out togather, as u can tell from the name there are 4 of us, Agnes, Anna And Peggy. All of them are working accept me, we studied accountancy togather but one of them Anna is training to be a nurse cool huh, the other two are working as accounts clerks....we went to eat at marina square at a place called Fin, i had a sandwich, you noe being on diet and everything i could not get yong tau foo in a restaurant obviously, the last i saw them was in may i think at a friends b'day party, accept for anna i saw her just last week, i missed them, after lunch we went shopping at bugis street, OMG! the clothes there are sooo pretty, but small, i must must lose weight and buy clothes from there, i want to dress up, i am sick anmd tired of sticking to my usual jeans and black top, so dull looking no wonder i don't get notices along with other factors, when i watch them shop like there is no tomorrow, i envy them, since there are financially stable they can buy anything, whatever and whenever they want. i can't wait to start work, but again i am happy studying too enjoying my youth and stuff... they call it opportunity cost when i am studying i can't be working, its either here or there.....

peiyun and i, my one of my close buddy in g4....

new pics................most recent

2005-09-08T23:56:00.000-07:00

thanks to my friend, who helped me load pictures from my handphone to the computer....i can now show you how vain i am hahaha....
the following are the 3 princesses of my house.

baby standing on my messy study table, this is my room and i painted it myself...

this is my baby gal...her name is baby

this is my coco, sher is very vain to her nickname is bimbo

she is the youngest member of my family "nana" nickname snob....

he is my baby cousin, his name is edward but i call him ah boy...

the lady who give life to me.....my dearest mommy.....

she is becky......the well known jazzy becky....

and now more pics of me, enjoy hahaha............

my blue eyes

want to see me without makeup.....hope you won't get a nightmare....

hahahaha

this is not porn ok...... me on my cozy bed................

forgetful......

2005-09-08T05:48:00.000-07:00

here i am, yet in another lab duty, just played badminton with 3 of the sister gang, they are all so good and excellant badminton players, feel so small next to them (not in size but in skill) i actually prefer playing badminton single, not because i think i am good in badminton, it's because there is more room to run around and follow the direction of the ball, in double games i feel restricted, but my sister gang members are very supportive and encouging..... i have started planning for my birthday, things are alright....i have my MMD presentation 2morro, i am semi-prepared though, i made oreo cheese cake again, i am so glad my friends like them, it makes me wanna bake more for them. i am a little dissappointed with somthing, when u use your effort to do somthing some people don't appreciate............. today is catherina's b'day my favourite cousin and mother mary's i can't believe i 4got, i am getting 4getful lately, i dunnoe what's wrong with me, it is quite ignoring, i will be getting my last stopovers grade 2morro....wish me luck...............

call me V.A.I.N

2005-09-06T01:27:00.000-07:00

HELLO........ i did not update abt my diet for along time, well i still consume soup, but i have also been consuming alot of junk, its been 3 months i have lost 5kg, but i want to loose 11kg more to hit my goal weight, now becky and i have started a intensive diet where we will be monitoring each others diet and excercise, i am planning to add more to my exercise like maybe to go jogging every morning, that is if i can wake up... :p... i now eat yong tau foo with no fried stuff, chilli and sauce..... it is hard but will be worth the suffering, i have said it but i will say it again, i want to fit into a beautiful dress on my birthday, sheena and i went to THIS FASHION, on sunday i wanted to try the dresses there, because in the past the dress won't fit even the L size, as i was going through the dresses, there was no L size, i was like nevermine, just try the M size, i was thinking hopefully not to tear the dress apart hahaa....as i was trying the dress guess what it fit just nice...i was very happy. take a look!!!

(there is no colour combination, but i like the fact that i fit in the dress, YEAH!
mission half-way accomplished) can u see sheena in the background.....

i am motivated to loose more weight, and fit into better clothes, hopefully i will be able to buy the whole of THIS FASHION home, hehe, if there is a will there is a way!!!

took this at taka's car showroom for suzuki.....cool huh.....

my darling coco sleepling, izzit she cute or what......she is real....

shall i or shall i not

2005-09-05T23:01:00.000-07:00

i have two things to think about, maybe u can give me ur advice or coments, ok here it goes.... firstly abt my part-time job, i am really very tired, i have to work in guardian after work from 7pm to 10.30 pm on weekdays atleast twice and one weekend, i am sick and tired of travelling to work after school and then reach home at 11.pm or later do my stuff and excersice then go to sleep at 12am plus and then wake up at 7am plus and the routine all over again....i am sooo sick of it, already i have no life or social life, now i am totally a rombie, i did not go to work yesterday, i felt bad to tell my supervisor, as she is my schoolmates sister, i have been skipping work quite a bit due to the surveying for my attachment, so i taught of quiting, i did tell them but they said stay, atleast until they get a replacement, but i have a feeling they forgot i want to quit, i must gather my courage and tell the supervisor again, but i am afaird that it might affect my friendship with her sister, as i think my supervisor is disappointed that i am missing work alot lately. I really can't help it as i have to meet the surveying target for my school and the fact that i get tired even on weekends we are conducting surveys from 8am to 8pm, with little breaks in between. I am still waiting for the gym job application, it is better than guardian because it is nearer to my home and pays much more......i am working for the money for my birthday fund.... but if i quit this job, i am afaird i won't get the pay, and if i quit and i don't get the gym job, i will not have a job in the end.....confused......i also want to buy a digital camera for my birthday...that is why i am a workoholic now......

secondly.....what do u think of tatoos, i was thinking of getting one since 16 years old, but did not noe what i want to get, maybe i will get it for my 21st b'day, i told my mum abt it, she did not say yes or no, but now i am not sure to get or not to get, as it will be with me till i die, it must be somthing that i won't regard doing, so i taught of getting a butterfly, i did a little research on the meaning of it and here it is:

Symbolic of resurrection and eternal life, the butterfly emerging from its cocoon represents the resurrection of Christ from the tomb. Just as the butterfly comes forth with a new body, those who trust in Christ come forth with new life. The butterfly also represents flight, freedom, and creative thinking. A symbol of spring, the butterfly truly reflects the beauty of nature..

i think it represents me...... i dunnoe confused again.....haha, "as the butterfly comes with a new body" after i loose more weight and gain a new look and hit my goal weight i MIGHT get a tatoo......

DESPARATE for time!!

2005-08-30T05:35:00.000-07:00

hi all, i was hoping that there was more then 24 hours in a day, i want to do other things other then working, i have been so occupied that i 4got so many things like i totally 4got one of my sister gang member's birthday... chew hui's big M18, sori chew hui i 4got, i hope you had a wonderful birthday at that u liked your presents...very sori that i 4got your birthday i did't mean too, i also hardy have time to talk to my mother anymore, when she is at home i am working, when she is at work i am home. i have no time for tv, i wish i could watch tv, i kinda left work earlier on sunday, went out with sheena for awhile, we went to this fashion, i wanted to look at the dresses, as i want to wear a dress for my birthday, i was just having a look and wonder if i could fit in them, so i took three dresses and went to try them, i always could not fit into the dresses there not even the L size, there was no L, so i took the M, and guess what it could fit me....yes it fit me, me A.N.D.R.E.A, WOW....i was impressed.....i am motivated to lose more weight by my b'day and fit into a better dress and from this fashion of cause........

the surveying....

2005-08-30T05:28:00.000-07:00

conducting the survey at yio chu kang swimming complex, for the pass, say 4 days has made me blind, i saw sooooo many gays OMG, they are sooo disgusting, there are complaints that they kiss and misbehave in the toilets.... or god i can't wait to end this survey duration.....

WILL NEVER 4GET 27 August 2005!!

2005-08-30T04:11:00.000-07:00

YES, i will never 4get this date, it is a day that is very meaningful to me, ok what happen was that sheena and i spent the time togather that day, i met her at Borders then we went to the Big O for lunch after that we headed to cineleisure for a drink walked around a little, then headed down to plaza singapura, while walking in P.S sheena suggested that we go to the acade to play a game or too, we saw this machine where there are handphones in the machine, if u win u get the phone of your choice, she tryed and tryed and tryed, after $9 dollars of failed attempts, with the finally coin, she was so determined to get a handphone she was like last coin i have to win somthing, my heart was beating so fast i could hardly breath, it was sooo intened there were other people watching sheena play (her fans haha ) they were also very nerves, finally at the last stage, i did't want to see the outcome so i closed my eyes, guess what SHE WON!!!!! a handphone Yes!! she took the 7260... the fans were claping and cheering....i was so shocked and happy that my heart was still beating fast, i was lost of words and i was feeling very warm, the lady at the counter wanted sheena to sell her for $250, the value of the phone is like $500 to $600 plus outside and she won it for just $10, she did not sell it to the lady, we went to bugis to claim the phone, still i was feelin warm and faint i dun noe why? heart was still beating fast, then later sheena said to me" why dun you have the phone, since i have the 7270, we can have the phone with the same functions, i was like WHAT!! u are giving me the phone, u could have sold the phone to the lady or sell it at any second hand store or keep it, from giving it to me u get nothing, she was like it is ok, i noe you like the phone and have been eyeing it for a long time, i was very touched by her.

she is soooo sweet, who would be so taughtful like my best friend the one and only sheena, i am sooo lucky to have her as my bestfriend not because of her giving me the handphone but for alot of other things like, i was able to go to Hong Kong because of sheena, she paid for our trip not only the flight but everything food and accomodation, since primary school she has been providing for me in a way, like everytime she buys a drink she buys two, one for me one for her, till today, whenever we go out or what she always buys stuff and pay for our meal, as she know i can't afford to pay or dine at expensive restaurants, she is always there for me when i needed her the most, sometimes comparing the things she has done for me and what i have done for her, she side of the scale is always the heaviest, i have told myself that when i start working i will have to pay back or show my gratitude somehow it will be my turn....

Whatever she dose for me, she dose it without expecting anything in return, i love her for that, for her kind heart and sweet soul, i pray everyday for her that her dreams will come true (we all noe what that is) i am so lucky to have her as my bestfriend, we are more like sisters that dose not stay under one roof, for whatever deeds that she dose i am sure she will be reconized for and will be rewarded someday.

To sheena, believe in your dreams strongly don't let anyone allow you to have doubts in them ok, be positive, i am sure for you kind soul whatever you hope for or wish to have, will be yours be it in your love life, career or just anything. i have the confidence in you, as you are very determined to get what you want, we all noe how motivated and determined you were to get the phone, use that determination....... i would say that i am the luckist person on earth as i have you as my best friend...the is noone like you....you are a treasure that people wish they could be or be with........ love you gal.... and i mean it 101%

my new phone.....my baby!!

lost my handphone

2005-08-25T19:49:00.000-07:00

Guess what i lost my handphone last friday, a week ago....i am sooo careless, i bought a second hand phone, my number is the same, but i lost everyone's number, if you read this entry please sent me your number again to my handphone please....thank you......

ARDC sucks!!

2005-08-25T18:40:00.000-07:00

ARDC, short for Appiled Research Developement Centre, is my new stopover, it involves conducting survey outdoors, face to face, already i have no social life on top of that i have to mantain 2 part-time jobs, and guess what my schedule is like now... we have to conduct survey from thur 25 aug to thur 1 sep, there are three sessions:

1 session - 8am - 11am
2 session - 1pm - 4 pm
3 session - 5pm - 8 pm

school hours are from 8.30 am to 6pm, everyday, now that we have to do these surveys it is really going to be hectic for me, i just hope i won't break down physically or mentally, we have to fulfill 2 sessions everyday. i need a day off man, lets hope i will be in one piece at the end of the survey........

two part time jobs

2005-08-23T05:23:00.000-07:00

yeah, i am super busy now, i have no time for myself, i am very tired both mentally and physically, i have two part-time jobs, because of some financial crises at home, i work in school and at guardian pharmacy........and also i am on attachment still in school...so it is like having 3 jobs and no sleep, God save me, i missed drama lesson on saturday due to work, i feel bad about that, drama camp was fun, excellant....simply amazing!!, erm... some of the gals at camp could read the plam, i don't believe in it, but for the fun of it i showed my hand, guess what, i have a very short life line, i husband will be handsome (at least to me), i will have two kids (one gal one boy, cause i say so haha), i truth relationship (so sad), two career lines (auditor and somthing eles S??) married twice (definatly not true)... i am quite disappointed with my family and my mom, at least i am doing somthing abt the financial crises at home, my sis and bro can find a part-time job right, instead of hogging on the phone and playing computer games, now that the com at home is spoit i can only access the com in school, but in sch i can't view the tag board, so whoever left a tag for me i can't reply u just as yet sooooo sorry.......

spent time with him

2005-08-17T12:21:00.000-07:00

hi, long time no write ha ha...., well life is quite busy and stressful for me now, i kinda spent some time with him, i had a wonderful time, he is really adoreble, sheena saw him by chance, i am so gald that she saw him, he is really funny and playful in a cheerful way...ermm i like...... he is great and perfect, yet he can't be mine.....

about him...

2005-08-10T07:48:00.000-07:00

well....i did somthing that i never thought i will do, ermm, ok i did not tell the sister gang and my team members who i like, but i did tell them inventually, one of my sister gang told me that he might be from her secondary school, so i had a friend from that secondary, i asked this friend to bring her year book, and guess what he was from that secondary sch, now i now his full name and that (i hate to say this) he is 2 years younger than me...ahhhhhh!!! so devastating....haha ok not that bad...how can i like someone younger than me.... i showed his sec 2 pic to my mom, my mom was like what he looks sooo young...haha than i told her it was his sec 2 pic not now...he dose not look 19 at all he looks older, but hi nothing can stop the fact that he is younger than me... my team members were talking about our crushes "we call them hub-bands" cute right...i was forced to say mine, i even showed them his current pic ... i saw him on a few days ago, i was remainding myself that he is younger than me, i dun want to fall for guys that are younger then i am...and guess what another heart attack.... i found him in friendster he is attached, ok lets close this chapter...no more talkin about him, i am so sad the fact that whenever i like someone he is either attached, gay, engaged or somthing...boy am i soooo lucky in relationships.............sighs****

block leave like no leave.....

2005-08-09T07:41:00.000-07:00

hi i am suppose to be on block leave this week, yet no time to rest am sooo restless, monday, suppose to go out with sheena, but was tired too, in the end went out with mom and grandma, tuesday was the NDP was at padang all afternoon, wednesday went out with sheena and first day at work in guandian pharmacy....now i have two part-time job, financial crisis at home, on thursday going out with sheena and then work in sch from 6 to 10pm then on friday till sunday i have camp in sch....and then monday start sch all over again.....ahhhh

rebonding.................

2005-08-06T10:07:00.000-07:00

yeah.....i taught of rebonding my hair nearer to my birthday, but i was getting sick of my hair so i finally went rebonding with gracy (team member) i like my hair now, my hair also look dyed... ha ha good for me, some people say there is no difference, but what matters is that i like it! i hate the fact that i am very conscious about my looks, i really am, i can't stop looking into the mirror or powder my face, i guess when u get older u became more conscious at least for me, why i am such? maybe beacuse no body say anything like, hi i like your hair or you are pretty.... ermmm...oh well....

my new look....like the same look haha....

what is a CRUSH!!

2005-08-02T20:40:00.000-07:00

well a crush simply means u like someone right, but i am getting sick of having crushes on people, yes i am, it is always one sided and the person i end up liking will never know that i like him, i am going to be 21 in december and sometimes i feel that i am too old to have crushes, and he is my first crush in NYP, i dun want to make assumptions about him and me, as i have for my other crushes as someone said assumptions are the mother of all screw ups, i agree 100%, i think he is yourger than me by a year or 2, that is not good for me, oh man, i am sooo tired of all this, i just feel like screaming, nevermine let fate take its cause, whoever is meant for me, hope he will come by soon, before i freak out, hahaha, i always believe if it is meant to be, it is meant to be, if not no questions asked. i have another camp for 3 days, next weekend, he will be around, i dun noe how it will turn out , but i hope for the best, i will control my emotions and came you updated.........

camp!!

2005-08-02T19:31:00.000-07:00

hi, had camp last sat and sun in sch, it was a student union camp, some of my sister gang was also in the camp, morning it was raining, so we played ice breakers indoors, i had to leave for the NDP preview in the afternoon, while i was missing the fun in school, at night we had the blind fold game, it is a common game in camps, it is a game for u to trust your teammates and stuf, we were allowed to take a shower after 12.00am and lights out was at 1.00am, we could not sleep as it was a new environment, and it was very cold in the later part of the moning....it was a fun came though i was hardly around.........

true feelings....

2005-07-26T04:30:00.000-07:00

to him,

when we met for the first time you teased me,
when we met for the second time, i could not get my eyes of you,
when we met for the third time, i was being myself,
why were you nervous, when we shook hands, when you looked into my eyes,
Why were you disappointed, when you were pulled away,
Why did i catch you looking at me.....Why??
What is the meaning of this,
wHAT do people call it,
It is the word that starts with the letter C,
oR is it somthing that we both never expect is,
What is all this T ................?

feel better!!

2005-07-24T10:18:00.000-07:00

hi sori for not blogging again, i was busy and stuff, well my feet is fine noe so much better though i have somthing sticking out on top of my feet that hurts..... i can still walk,run and even fly now....hahaha.....i was quite busy planning for up coming events for the roadshow, can't wait for the block leave...which is on the week of national day, i did't go for basketball training for 2 weeks, because of my feet, i have 2 camps coming up in school, the student union and stage arts camp.... can't wait 4 it, i went for my first stage arts practise last saturday, it was very very fun, u have to come out of your shell and start doing things that you thought u won't be doing ....not like it is anything bad!!, but i had a wonderful time, my mom and grandmother went to watch the preview of the NDP, for the first time in their life....they said it was a memory made, erm.... i have a test on wednesday, wish me luck, i can't seem to store anything in my head right now as its been a long time since i had any kind of test.....BOO! sheena asked me whether i want to go bangkok or to a resort in bintan during my block leave, i would love to have a break, it might be a 4 days 3 night thing, my mother agreed for me to go, nothng is confirmed yet......but am looking forward to it...... yeah!! my sister gang will be very happy to hear that i might me going to bangkok, as i of their idol is from there....so sister gang want me to find him for you???? hahahah....get back to me on that yea....

IN PAIN!!

2005-07-12T03:50:00.000-07:00

today is the second day of my teams event cross-cultural food fair, it is doing well so far, the vendors were giving trouble on the first day, but it is all ok, my team has worked very hard so did other teams that helped us with the fair, i am so happy watching how we help each other i am truly touched, for today the morning preparation of moving tables were all before schedule compared to yesterday, i am really very proud of everyone.. Now i am in my sch's lab doing my duty, abt less than an hour ago, the egg tarts oven which i tried to move with my lecturer fall on my feet, it is really very painful, i am crying right now, it feels like it is very heavy and very painful to move, tomorrow is the last day of the event and the first day of team 5's event, so can you imagine how hectic tomorrow is going to be with 20 vendors, OMG, and now i can't move my feet, i need to run around and check on stuff, but i dun noe how i am going to pull though 2moro???but i am so glad that my friends all helped me, i am really happy, even though i was in pain with their care it was nothing at all, thank you very much EMRS people, I love u so much people........thank you.......

sheena and i...

2005-07-09T23:31:00.000-07:00

here are some more pics we took.....some crazy ones hahaha

Check out my brown colour contact lens

me and lipstick....

dun mess with me.....

haha..

no kisses pls!!!

want a kiss anyone?

acting pretty....

what was that....

i hate!!

2005-07-09T23:20:00.000-07:00

i hate my life at home, where there is countless fights with my siblings especially that person (sister) i hate that b****, i am sori that i am rude and everything, but i really hate using the word B***** she made me say it, when i did somthing that was not wrong it seems wrong, but atleast i am smarter and noe what i want in life, she spends her time b****ing on the phone with god knows which boy sori not boy, boysssssss, she could have used that time studying well or getting atleast a scholarship, atleast it will help my mother financially... alot of things i hate that happends at home, i am out in sch, working, NDP. i am hardly at home, only on some sundays i am at home, yet i can't get some peace, i am independant, my mother is at work most of the time or when she is at home i am out, i dun talk to my brother much, its been like that since i was a child, so if i could get my own space, my own house it will be much much better for me, there will be no fights only peace and i will be HAPPY. Can't wait for that day!!

good news!!

2005-07-09T23:13:00.000-07:00

the results for my audition for satge arts will be out on saturday, today...... i had to go back to school, as i am involved in NDP, anyway i was hoping not to see name there as i mentioned in my earlier emtry that i acted like a clown in the audition, GUESS WHAT, i am selected in the dance and drama catogory, haha, i taught i could not act, that's why i went back to basketball, i discovered that acting is not my cup of tea at the audition, now i am caught in between basketball and (drama and dance), i need to do a lot of thinking, now i can be involved in both but after TEP, when we start studying again, where they will be test anfter test, projects after projects and of cause examination, i would not want to get to involved then, as doing well in school will be my no. 1 thing on the list.. (sighs) NDP was very fun, let u noe more abt it later on ya....

selected and rejected!!

2005-07-08T23:03:00.000-07:00

hi, it's been a busy week for me, planning and organising everything for the food fair on mon 11 july to 13 july organised by my team, it is a mega event in school, hope it turns out well, i went for the basketball trial on tuesday, we did not play any friendly match, it was more of finding the players individual physical strengh, a lot of running, at the end of the day my legs hurt so bad and it was only the trial, on wednesday, i went to the blood drive in school of course to donate blood, but when the nurse took a little of my blood and put it into this liquid it was suppose to float, in order to donate blood, but my blood sank right to the bottom (opps..) the nurse took another test, and said i can't donate blood, as in the medicalcal term somthing should be 12 but mine was 11.6, so i can't donate cause i lack iron in my blood, first time i got rejected after donating blood 3 times....i noe the reason, it is because of my diet, but still i dun care i will go on with this diet i will never give up, on thursday i received a sms that said i got selected to be in the basketball team, training on wednesday, i am glad to hear that....

buy FAMOUS AMOS cookies...

2005-07-06T21:49:00.000-07:00

hi, i am doing my personnal selling again, now there are special, discounted famous amos cookies offers...pls take a look at my personnal selling website, if you go to my links and credit you will find it there thank you peeps :P

i saw DAVID BECKHAM!!!!

2005-07-05T21:39:00.000-07:00

haha yeah i saw david beckham, he came to my school (NYP) for the national youth achievement award (NYAA) ceremony, OMG, he is sooo cute, although i only saw him from far, took lots of pictures, he is really tall in person, he was wearing all white sweater and track pants, but i would remember what he said he said," if you have a dream, work hard at it, and u noe that you will get it" i so agree, i told myself that i must do well for my basketball trial today, i did ok, we ran and ran and ran. ahh my legs are died right now haha, but it is all good i missed playing ball....

erm...make friends

2005-07-05T19:29:00.000-07:00

hi, sori for not blogging for a long time, as much as i want to blog often, i can't find the time, as being in EMRS( Events management and Road show) i am quite busy, we have a food fair coming up on 11 to 13 july, yes organised by my team, so we have been sourcing, calling vendors and typing reports, busy busy, but i love to be occupied atleat i have somthin to do, i guess i will be the MC again but this time not for any seminar but for the food fair and the venue is in the middle of the school, sooo embrassing i am turning red thinking abt that....we have organised games and there will be performance.....it will be a fun event haha, guess what i went out with diane on sunday....to wala wala, and her friend this guy R, wants to noe me, he wants my number, actually diane went there on sat the day before, and he was asking abt me as he saw me with her on friday.... should i or should i not give, ermm....i am quite nervous abt this? i need advise, give or dun give? sheena said just give my no, "try to make more friends, it is not like u are marrying him" that's her quote.....but have this guy calls me of sms me everyday i would not like that as i am not used to it.....

pics

2005-07-03T06:53:00.000-07:00

Me with messy hair!!!

FATHERS

2005-06-28T18:48:00.000-07:00

ermm fathers, what can i say about them, i have one yet he is a total stranger.....the memories i had about him are (he is not died but my parents are divorced) very little, i remember in good times he used to bring me to his soccer games, swmming and cook for us but the bad times was more, how he use to get drunk, yell, get into trouble with the police and stuff, i do not noe whether i love or hate my father... but i think it is Hate with a capital H, he has a tatoo of a family tree on his back with my mother's and my name in it, to think that my name is going to be on his body for life disgust me, i did't noe about the tatoo until this year when my mother told me, as i dun recall much from my childhood, he also left a letter in our house before he left (he had to leave because that house was bought by my mom, and it's under her name) anyway, in the letter he wrote, "take care of the three of us". What?? then what is ur duty as a father?? no birthday cards, no birthday wishes nothing at all over the years, not like i need any wish from him, i am happy not having him in my life, but at times it is hard when i see how my uncle play or talk to his child, when i see or hear my friends talking about how great their fathers are, or how my cousins chat with they dad....it is hard to see these things as no one in my family has not have a dad, my grandmother had a dad whom she talkes abt 24/7, my mother and her siblings and a wonderful dad who loved them deeply, my cousins are happy with a dad...but my siblings and i??? some people have dads in their homes yet they are strangers, either they dun talk to them or pretend that they dun exit?? but think about it atleast u have a dad that still cares and support your family for that u must give your father credit!!!

gals day out!!

2005-06-26T18:47:00.000-07:00

well went out with sheena on sunday we went sourcing for vendors for my events and roadshow, we had a wonderfull day together, she will be starting work today, all the best gal!!!! we took some pics together....

pss... check out the blue eyes.... that made the ang mo guy call us chicks!!.... chic ....chic!!!

Candid shot taken by sheena!!

AWWW... scary!!!

Life!!

2005-06-26T18:35:00.000-07:00

have not been blogging for a long time, due to insufficient time, anyway, my weekend was ok, on sat my grandmother, her brother (who just arrived from India), my uncle, his wife and child came over to my house for lunch, it was ok and all until, my uncle started making fun of baby (my dog) he said she is fat, the thing is dogs look cute when they are chubby, when i said my dog is not fat, he said what do u mean ur dog, she is my dog, for his information my grandmother bought baby for me for doing well in primary 6, NOT IS DOG, MY DOG, besides he never took care of her wat so ever, Then my grandmother defendded and said ya its her dog i bought it for her....i am not being petty oh anything but everytime he sees my dog he has to criticise i am sick of the crab!! then he said your dog is fat so are u, the both of u need to go on diet.... i was sooo pissed off!! how would u feel after execersing for 1 month and a half and dieting for 2 weeks, not having any kind of startch like rice, noodle bread...i am almost died now and someone just come along and say ohhh u need to lose weight??? first of all have anyone want to give any kind of comment look at yourself before u say anything, my uncle is not slim either....atleast i am excersing and dieting unlike him lazying around and being a PIG!! sori i noe i am rude and all but i am really pissed!!

soo screwd!!!!!

2005-06-21T06:45:00.000-07:00

today is the second day of the first week in events and roadshow and i am alreday freaking out!! so stress, to make things worse i am also the leader of the group...i really miss CRMCC i regrad choosing events and roadshow .....nevermine it will be over in 8 weeks, 3 days....oh yes someone pls fine me a whole were i can bury myb face....u noe whatb happened, to day was the audition for stage arts, i basically screwed up...everything from acting where there were five juges, u noe what was my senorio to act, pretend that i found my boyfriend in bed with my bestfriend....i was like wat??? oh no how the hell am i suppose to react...then the second one was that i want to commit suicide and i have a suicide note how will i react.....i was like can i give up...but no i did not give up i tried my best for it...results will be out on july 9, and for dancing we were forse to join, it was hip hop dance i was dancing like a clown, only thing that was missing was the clown's custume... for the make-up i did alright...i found out basketball is the thing for me... i might join if i did't get into acting....

ME A CHICK!!!?

2005-06-18T05:14:00.000-07:00

oh my goss!! i must tell you about friday.....i actually followed sheena to plaza singapura to spy on a gal she like called T, anyway she works at this restaurant, we were in the restaurant spying from 7pm to 10.30pm......soo long..... i was sheena's private detective, i have been spying for her since secondary school on her crushes, moving on....we left for dinner and come back to spy at 11.20pm, this time we when 2 storey higher so T could not see us spying, we were at the balcony....sheena was not near the balcony as she was shy, as i was walking to the balcony, three guys were there, and one of them an ANG MO!! kept looking at me, i was not sure who he was looking at, at first when i looked directly at him, he looked at me and sung "would u be my girlfriend" u knoe the song from N'sync. i was sooooo shockd i made a 360 degrees turn and walked towards sheena i was giving her a oh my gross, shocked kind of look, then i told her what happened then we walked to the balcony togather, guess what the ang mo guy said, 'Hi blue eyes" that day i was wearing my blue colour contact lens, according to my sister gang if i wear them i am a ghost and according to lionel i am a cat....anyway.....i was sooo shocked....then his friends said lets leave a somthing, he said "NO, I WANT TO KNOW THE 2 CHICKS FIRST" wow.... first time in my life and sheena's someone called us a chick....ohhhh....then as they left i was not facing their side sheena was, the ang mo guy waved bye, and my dear sheena waced back....ohhh no....as he was going down the escalator, he kept on looking at us.....i was glad he left after that, when i looked at the other side, the three guys were there again....oh no and the ang mo guy kept on looking....after somtime they went into the acade and he won't stop looking.....after T left we left..end of story....this is a first time i experienced such a thing, anyone who noes me, noe that i have a thing for ang mo guys... hahah ....i must thank my lucky stars , and of cause worship my twist and shap machine...i love it soo much, sheena and my mom said i lost weight i am so happy....i can't wait to reach my goal weight....haha

WHAT!!

2005-06-14T19:00:00.000-07:00

Remember i said i signed up for the theater of arts, well...it seems that shu fen went for the audition last year and she told me this morning that they will give a script and u must act out accordingly, u must also dance, they will teach...i am ok with dancing then she said u must also sing!! i was like WHAT!! i must sing......oh no...i can't sing i am not even a bathroom singer...now i am cracking my head to think of a song to sing... and i have the feeling that i am going to get sick soon...and the audition is on monday how??...today i saw claire one of the ex-basketball player...she said she will be going for the basketball trial and asked me whether i was going...i said i will get back to her, shu fen and chew hui when for the badminton trial today...they said they were nervous and did not play well...but i bet did played their best and will surly get into the team they are both excellant badminton players and love badminton alot, cheer up u guys!!..anyway i felt like going for the basketball trail, i want to play basketball again, i want to take part in tournaments again.....i am sooo confused....

to chew hui and shufen...dun worry people, i am sure u played ur best....and be confident that u will get in the team ok...be positive, touch wood!! if u dun get in, we can still play badminton with our sister gang every week, i dun mine not playing basketball, we can always play badminton....cheer up!!! remember not to judge ur talent just because u think others are better ok......

twist & shape!!

2005-06-13T21:38:00.000-07:00

it is exactly one month since i started the twist and shape... now for the results... well i lost 2-3 kg...so little right i guess i ate more than i should soo..but although i lost only a few kg but all my jeans, pants are super loose...ya no kidding...my hipsters(jeans) are now buttsters hahaha....that is gd...i like the results...so i told myself u can't be eating like a pig and say that u excercise...and expectt to loose like 10 kg... that's why they always say diet and excercise must go hand in hand...soo..after one month of excercising...i have started the Oprah Winfrey boot camp diet.. http://www2.oprah.com/presents/2005/bootcamp/eat/eat_rules.jhtml from today...till the 12 weeks...no startchy food...bacially i can only eat protein....i am already feeling dead... after one day. But i have the determination to be on this diet but i am worried that it migth not last...it is only...only..12 weeks andrea u can do it YES!!

birthday party 2!!

2005-06-12T20:36:00.000-07:00

hiii... on sat i went to JB to my mother's friend house...from the malaysian custom we took a cab to the house they charged 35 ringit for the cab ...wow expensive.. anywhere the house was in the middle of nowhere but we had fun, had lunch, played with the friend's dog called puppy...some how puppy's behavior reminds me of my dog baby both are friendly and super hyper...we reached singapore abt 7pm, then i had to go to one of my sister gang member sufen's b'day party at sengkang...wow from kranji to sengkang...hah it took me years to reach shu fen's house, i was the last to reach...anyway i must say this ......shu fen's family members are very friendly, they are very socialble...and i like that...i felt for once i have been quite open in parties...like joking, playing and simply having fun...i laughed alot...i wish my family could be more like that...but i will always love my family for who they are.........