Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Beautiful c.h.i.j.m.e.s
you know i have passed by chijmes a million times, i admired the building and all that but never really took time to stop and enjoy the beauty of it, just yesterday i wanted to just go in and take a look at its surroundings, i took pictures, and you know wat i love the place its beautifull, the first chij sch was there i am an ex ij gal, its just amazing, its a pity i haven't dine in at any of the restaurants there before.... however i wish.....
i wish to celebrate maybe my b'day there maybe just call a few secondary sch friends and hang out there that will be soooo cool....
Or
whenever i get married i hope to take the wedding pics there....that will be sooo perfect...
beautiful moments @ 1:49 AM
I have to start my revision
Gosh my exams are in 4 & 9 dec 08, i was just looking at the revision classes.... i am going to be supper busy soon.....oh boy i havent had a exam for a long time now.... right now i am so lazy, even to drag myself to classes is a chore... i need to study and revise... i dun know when and where to start crap......
beautiful moments @ 1:46 AM
Monday, September 15, 2008
after almost a year i am blogging again
here is a updated pics of me....
beautiful moments @ 9:05 PM
Gosh guess i havent been blogging for a lonnnnng time, it was nice reading up my old entries.... well life is fine now, i have had two surgeries in two yrs, i have started my Acca course, gosh it really is not easy working full time and studying part-time... hats off to all those ppl who made it.... i am like struggling la... but its all good, i have missed some classes due to poor health, i really hope i will understand what i have learned and apply them well in my exams..... i know i will...
beautiful moments @ 9:05 PM
Thursday, August 02, 2007
lost soul
pls dun ask me if i am ok, when u know i am not, i dun want to lie to you, cause u love me too much not to see me fine. I will take my time to be fine, not forced into being fine......**** ** ***
beautiful moments @ 2:40 AM
i really do not know, if i am disappointed or i choose to be disappinted, i hate empty promises, maybe i am not understanding enough, if i am understanding enough, will i loose my feelings, i dun noe, i have soo much of mixed emotions inside me, i feel i cannot tell anyone, i dun want to be forced into tellin how i feel, i know i am not perfect, i know i am stuborn, but so are you. Maybe you have soo many things going on, i dun noe, how to tell you how i feel, i dun want you to think i am being unreasonable, ok nevermind, i will just stop dreaming and live in the present, dreaming is very bad andrea, it only leads to disappoints. Fantascing is a total bulls****, i will just devert my attention somewhere eles, yes that is only the best way, i will stop thinking abt us sooooo much, i will live each day as it comes, never forsee wat is planned for you tomorrow.....i am going to keep myself occupied, maybe with part-time jobs and excercise or something....
i just love this song i like the words..... its from kelly carkson its called haunted
Haunted"
Louder, louder
The voices in my head
Whispers taunting
All the things you said
Faster the days go by and I'm still
Stuck in this moment of wanting you here
Time
In the blink of an eye
You held my hand, you held me tight
Now you're gone
And I'm still crying
Shocked, broken
I'm dying inside
Where are you?
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Speak to me
Be near me
I can't survive unless I know you're with me
Shadows linger
Only to my eye
I see you, I feel you
Don't leave my side
It's not fair
Just when I found my world
They took you, they broke you, they tore out your heart
I miss you, you hurt me
You left with a smile
Mistaken, your sadness
Was hiding inside
Now all that's left
Are the pieces to find
The mystery you kept
The soul behind a guise
Where are you
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Speak to me
Be near me
I can't survive unless I know you're with me
Why did you go?
All these questions run through my mind
I wish I couldn't feel at all
Let me be numb
I'm starting to fall
Where are you?
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Speak to me
Be near me
I can't survive unless I know you're with me
Where are you?
Where are you?
You were smiling
beautiful moments @ 2:08 AM
i have a lot of question marks on my head......why do i feel i am always misunderstood, i know i am not underestandig too, i hate changes i really hate changes, when i made sacrificed so much in the beginging i felt lie i was suffering always making people better then i was, yes it's my fault for not tellin how i felt, but i had to hide my own emotions because ppl have sooo much of things going own, my sacrifice did't seem too much, now that i can get my life back to how it was, its sooo difficult, i feel sooo disorgansied, i do not noe how to put things in place, i am used to my "sacrificed life" i dun want what i lost now.......i dun noe what i am typing i am just soooo confused, i want to cry sooo hard sooo much but i am stopping myself, i am sick and tired of crying i am just sooooo sick of it, i am soooo tempted to cut myself again and again but i can't as i promised i will not cut myself again, but the emotions i hv to go through to not cut myself is terrible.......all i ask is for me to be happy, i have seen and cryed enough in my life, i want a happier life, a better life a cry free life......please
beautiful moments @ 6:58 AM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Happiness never lasts..............
I got a new phone on 26 Apr, Nokia 6288. i have been eyeing this phone for a couple of mths now glad i got this phone, i took a long time to blog again because, i was hospitalised had to undergo a surgery on my back, haiz wat happened was, ok the week that i got my phone, i was feelin very sick, got my phone on a thurs, since Monday, i felt a pain on my back, the pain got worse each day, then on wednesday i had fever, continued having fever everyday after that, it was really unsual, then on friday night i had really high fever, but still i packed my bag for work at the gym the next day, but my mum scolded me as she really wanted me to see the doc i was postponing it all week as i gave up visiting the doctor, then i asked for replacement for my shift and went to the polyclinic on sat, i did't know that i had fever because of the lump, the doctor said that was the cause of the fever, and refered me to A & E, at Tan Tock Seng, i was really in pain by then, i cld not eat my lunch properly boy it was hell, at Tan Tock Seng, they said i need a surgery and i need to be hospitalised, i really did't know it was this serious, the day before i told paupei that i was really frighten, he really gave me some courage, i told him paupei that i was going to be hospitalised he said he will come to the hospital, after a short wait, i was given my ward ard 5pm, a group of doctors came to see my lump and said they will prepare for my operation and that i can't eat or drink anything, i was like crap, as i was really hungry by then, they took some of my blood and put me on the drip, gosh it was painful, my cousin and bro came to see me, then paupei came i was so happy to see him, he brought me flowers, then ard 9pm they i asked me to get really for the opt i was like shit soo soon, i took at paupei and my family with fear in my eye, at the opearation theater, i was asked lots of question, then the jam that puts you to sleep, i taught it will slowly put me to sleep, but in no time, i blacked out the next thing i knew i was in another room another observation, i was soo drowsy and in so much pain that i was morning in pain and crying, the nurse gave me lots of pain killers in fact to the max, then they brought me to my ward, it was 11.10pm, i was hoping that my boyfriend, my dear paupei was still there, cause he said if i was not back at my ward by 11pm he would leave as he needed to catch the last train home, i was hoping that he was still there, i noe my family will be there no doubt, when i was at my ward, the first person i saw was my paupei, even though i was blur and weak i was very happy to see him and my family there, i did't noe i told this to paupei, but he said i told him that i was glad that he was still there, i got discharged the next day, felt very weak last week wat made it worse was i had to get my dressing changed everyday, the nurse said the wound is still raw and big, i really hope it will close up soon, maybe its not healing soon because its a open wound.... But i really appreciate everyone that came to see me, sheena came to see me just before i got discharged i was very happy to see her too. I am blessed.....
MY NEW BABY
beautiful moments @ 1:19 PM
Friday, April 20, 2007
Goodluck or badluck...
Ermmm, i did't go to watch the dance floor, maybe subconsiousely i knew i was going to get sick AGAIN later, hai, wat happened was after i went to the dentist, i had this burning feeling in my stomach, then i was puking my guts out every hour from 4am till abt 7 plus, i puked alittle blood too, that really freaked me out, i was sooo frighten that i called paupei and my gdma, they calmed me down and stuff, i did't sleep at all that night, later that day i had high fever, till there was sharp pain in my knees and back, i really felt like and looked like shit, i coulded see the doc yesterday because i was too weak too walk, paupei was angry at the fact that i did't see the doc, but he really take care of me, togather with my gdma and mum, Paupei and gdma were really worried abt me, but i am feeling better now went to see the doc today, she said i had food poisoning...gosh, now for the good news, after waiting for abt 1 mth and 19 days i had 3 job offers, 2 temp and 1 permanent job, of course i took the permanent job,i will start work in early May, but i really hope i will enjoy my work and stay with the co. for a long term.... chao!
beautiful moments @ 6:43 AM
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
6 mths already...
Wow it is our 6th month togather yesterday.... paupei got me a rose, i really love it and he is the first person ever to give me a rose...how sweet
when to my gdma's place today to play with the twinz and of course to look for more jobs....many ppl hv helped me by telling me where to look for one, i really appreciate that, thank you guys...i think i am going to spend the rest for the day reading.....
This is the rose.....
Twin 1: Rony
Twin 2: Becky
beautiful moments @ 2:34 AM
