i have a lot of question marks on my head......why do i feel i am always misunderstood, i know i am not underestandig too, i hate changes i really hate changes, when i made sacrificed so much in the beginging i felt lie i was suffering always making people better then i was, yes it's my fault for not tellin how i felt, but i had to hide my own emotions because ppl have sooo much of things going own, my sacrifice did't seem too much, now that i can get my life back to how it was, its sooo difficult, i feel sooo disorgansied, i do not noe how to put things in place, i am used to my "sacrificed life" i dun want what i lost now.......i dun noe what i am typing i am just soooo confused, i want to cry sooo hard sooo much but i am stopping myself, i am sick and tired of crying i am just sooooo sick of it, i am soooo tempted to cut myself again and again but i can't as i promised i will not cut myself again, but the emotions i hv to go through to not cut myself is terrible.......all i ask is for me to be happy, i have seen and cryed enough in my life, i want a happier life, a better life a cry free life......please