Wednesday, May 10, 2006
i am vain or just two self-concious
well, i am so sick and fed up with the fact that i have been training in the gym for like 3 mths now, three times a week 2.5 hrs a day, and i only lost 3kg, wat's up with that? how would you feel if u have been working out after a whole day of work, already so tired, your brain functions like a dead person's. And it just took one day to ruin all that, well this is wat happened,
person #1: Hey andrea, have u had dinner?
me: well, kinda i had a pau?
person#1 huh u had a pau? but u urself look like a pau!!
me: a******
Two more person said i was "big" on the same day, i felt like crap, i mean dun go around telling people you look big, u look look like a pau even if you noe that this person have been eating like a begger and have been working out frequently it is really unfair, here i am trying to love myself, how too if people won't just keep their feakin mouth shut!! i am so so damn pesst off, if u guys weren't my friend i would have given you a very nice thrashing verbally of cause, who needs your remaks you look like crap urself.....
haized, sometimes i just want to stay in bed and cry, scream, i did't ask to have a big frame, big bones to have a bad immune system, i am still suffering from constipation, maybe thats one of the reasons why my weight is taking so long to lose, for the last two days, my tummy felt so bloated that i had to force to puke, it was terrible, in the morning i have to wake up with a burning sensation in my adominal, my tummy is just screwed.... on top of that i have to deal with bull s***, at times i just dun want to leave my house because i feel F.A.T, or would think that people will find me fat, big, enormous wat ever u noe.... i take so long to doll myself up, make-up, rebonded hair, contact lens but is it worth it? well... i guess i just have to be stronger and have a thicker skin then i already have, with stupit remarks? that people make without thinking...
Took this a month back i think, i refuse to take a fuller pics as the fats will show especially around my arms...
beautiful moments @ 4:31 AM
where r u when i need u...
sheena has gone to L.A for holiday, she left the day after labour day, the day i start sch, i want to tell her so many things, ask her opinion on things but where is she when i need her enjoying herself in L.A! lol, well i am very happy for her, as she has planed to go on this trip for like decades and finally she is there she called me twice, she might extend she stay, i dun noe when she'll be back just can't wait for that day... its just that sheena is the second most important person after my family in my life, as for the man in my life in time to come he will be third hehe.... sheena is like my non-blood related sister anyone who knows me know that.
hey shinez, if you are reading this in your end of the world
i just can't wait for you to return to Singapore and u don't need to remind me to kill you when i see you for extending your trip.l... take care and behave ya.....
beautiful moments @ 4:21 AM
played football with...my baby cousin..
haha, played football with edward aka ah boy my baby cousin, well if we go out people think he's my son.... wats up with tat?....haiz, anymore, a piece of advice if you really really wanna burn calories just play football with a toddler, i bet u, u will lose all the weight u want yup, we had fun u noe kicking the ball, into the drain, then among the flower bed, eddy and i make a perfect team because we both play football like toddlers hehe.....
take this snap in the middle of out game
the boys threw me out of their team....my bro and ahboi
while wating the boys play managed to get a pic with my grandma
beautiful moments @ 4:11 AM
day out with the sisters...
finally, after decades the sister gang went out togather yea all 7 of us togather which in very likely, we met up last friday since there was no sch, we met at 10.30, went to the k-box spent like 4 hours there lol, well i never thought i would have so much fun singing lol it was cool, then we went over to bugis walked around a little, rested and ate like there was no 2moro in some steamboat place, went over to suntec decided to catch M.I 3 at the last minute, well the movie was good liked the action and gedgits in it..... it was a super long day of fun...
hey, sister gang when is our next outing? can't wait!!!
beautiful moments @ 4:03 AM
well yea school sucks bad times, i was really excieted on getting out of my industrial attachment and into a new semester of sch....i dun noe i guess i am just so sick and tired of studying doing tutorial....etc i mean once upon a time i was really into studying and doing all my tutorials but now i am just fed up i guess so sick of words and numbers, i need help and motivation... i just can't get anything into my head during any of my lectuers and tutorials..H.E.L.P, i can't go on like this? i am totally helpless this is the worse semester of my life and its only the second week of sch, or maybe i am just two involved juggling two part-time jobs, but the jobs are not texing, ahhhh....i am taking int'buz, int' finance, co. law, accounting information system, report writing, published accounts, just 6 moudles out of which only 4 are examinable... i am freaking out
my new nerdy looking specs..actually its kinda cool dun u think
beautiful moments @ 3:52 AM