i have two things to think about, maybe u can give me ur advice or coments, ok here it goes.... firstly abt my part-time job, i am really very tired, i have to work in guardian after work from 7pm to 10.30 pm on weekdays atleast twice and one weekend, i am sick and tired of travelling to work after school and then reach home at 11.pm or later do my stuff and excersice then go to sleep at 12am plus and then wake up at 7am plus and the routine all over again....i am sooo sick of it, already i have no life or social life, now i am totally a rombie, i did not go to work yesterday, i felt bad to tell my supervisor, as she is my schoolmates sister, i have been skipping work quite a bit due to the surveying for my attachment, so i taught of quiting, i did tell them but they said stay, atleast until they get a replacement, but i have a feeling they forgot i want to quit, i must gather my courage and tell the supervisor again, but i am afaird that it might affect my friendship with her sister, as i think my supervisor is disappointed that i am missing work alot lately. I really can't help it as i have to meet the surveying target for my school and the fact that i get tired even on weekends we are conducting surveys from 8am to 8pm, with little breaks in between. I am still waiting for the gym job application, it is better than guardian because it is nearer to my home and pays much more......i am working for the money for my birthday fund.... but if i quit this job, i am afaird i won't get the pay, and if i quit and i don't get the gym job, i will not have a job in the end.....confused......i also want to buy a digital camera for my birthday...that is why i am a workoholic now......
secondly.....what do u think of tatoos, i was thinking of getting one since 16 years old, but did not noe what i want to get, maybe i will get it for my 21st b'day, i told my mum abt it, she did not say yes or no, but now i am not sure to get or not to get, as it will be with me till i die, it must be somthing that i won't regard doing, so i taught of getting a butterfly, i did a little research on the meaning of it and here it is:
Symbolic of resurrection and eternal life, the butterfly emerging from its cocoon represents the resurrection of Christ from the tomb. Just as the butterfly comes forth with a new body, those who trust in Christ come forth with new life. The butterfly also represents flight, freedom, and creative thinking. A symbol of spring, the butterfly truly reflects the beauty of nature..
i think it represents me...... i dunnoe confused again.....haha, "as the butterfly comes with a new body" after i loose more weight and gain a new look and hit my goal weight i MIGHT get a tatoo......
