well, i am so sick and fed up with the fact that i have been training in the gym for like 3 mths now, three times a week 2.5 hrs a day, and i only lost 3kg, wat's up with that? how would you feel if u have been working out after a whole day of work, already so tired, your brain functions like a dead person's. And it just took one day to ruin all that, well this is wat happened,
person #1: Hey andrea, have u had dinner?
me: well, kinda i had a pau?
person#1 huh u had a pau? but u urself look like a pau!!
me: a******
Two more person said i was "big" on the same day, i felt like crap, i mean dun go around telling people you look big, u look look like a pau even if you noe that this person have been eating like a begger and have been working out frequently it is really unfair, here i am trying to love myself, how too if people won't just keep their feakin mouth shut!! i am so so damn pesst off, if u guys weren't my friend i would have given you a very nice thrashing verbally of cause, who needs your remaks you look like crap urself.....
haized, sometimes i just want to stay in bed and cry, scream, i did't ask to have a big frame, big bones to have a bad immune system, i am still suffering from constipation, maybe thats one of the reasons why my weight is taking so long to lose, for the last two days, my tummy felt so bloated that i had to force to puke, it was terrible, in the morning i have to wake up with a burning sensation in my adominal, my tummy is just screwed.... on top of that i have to deal with bull s***, at times i just dun want to leave my house because i feel F.A.T, or would think that people will find me fat, big, enormous wat ever u noe.... i take so long to doll myself up, make-up, rebonded hair, contact lens but is it worth it? well... i guess i just have to be stronger and have a thicker skin then i already have, with stupit remarks? that people make without thinking...
Took this a month back i think, i refuse to take a fuller pics as the fats will show especially around my arms...
